feeling very fan right this moment. i cant explain why to this too?
had our handover ceremony yesterday and ha we had 'clubbing' at the moberly room like crazy. ha the gals are all so fun and they rock. i really miss u all. played bridge for like 8 hours. siao ppl we are. just so tempted to the game after every round. it get even more interesting when we actually raise the numbers... ha...
thanks seniors for making the banner and the video for us and the junior committee. u all will be always rmb. it so fun to be with u guys. too bad upgrading drew a line bet us if not we can achieve a better outcome. ha...
anyway ya a year had pass so soon. we had the good times and bad times together and yes we pull through. thanks again.
she talked to me and ya make me feel better. but funny they keep asking this matter. i will get over it de la. thanks so much for ur care and concern. i appreaciate it. =)
timecheck: 4:57 AM
hey to all my peeps i am sorrie to make u ppl worry out there. yeah i am fine maybe is just feeling down or sth. relax la i am fine now. what more can i hope for? theres only 7 more weeks to the end of itp. yeah the holidays are finally over? weird right first time wanting the holidays to be over so fast.
yeah i will get the sunshine peixuan to be back again. not to worry. yeah man thanks alot ppl! =)
timecheck: 4:47 AM
oh man i think the sat election was such a disappointment. I think only for me ba. cause most of the others got what they want. no one knows i was sad or maybe they know but nv say? ang called la telling me not to sad. next moment not sad but was only temporary. cannot be in the convo keep saying sad ma. but i think i need to let go and time is needed. why do i have to experience this again? first is poly 50 now is this?
growing stage is it? i realise its always the bad thing on me till now i haven seen any success in myself or any happie moments that i can proudly share with everyone. sad am i such a loser? no one knows only i do.
kk anyway after yesterday's kayaking i am aching all over my body. but my heart hurts the most. i cant believe that they called me a figurehead? eh i have feelings too. erm since i cant get it can dun pls mention it in front of me? what will 1 feel? u think? i know u all will nv read my blog but i just want to shout it out loud here. if u reads it good at least u know. damn hiding feelings infront of others is one of the toughest job i think. i cant hide feelings and what i do is always so real so i dun fake it out anything. the worst thing is i dun have silbings to talk to so i have to hide my unhappiness even in front of my parents. argh why turn out to be like this?
i am emo but who knows? damn. let the past be past and live for tmr. i hope this can come true...
timecheck: 5:06 AM
mood swings these days. i dunno what happened to me just feeling down. no motivation and feel so lonely i guess. is it due to the way they treat me or is it other problems.
lots of problems kept in the heart cant find any peeps to pour it out. everyone is busy. piling up the saddness in me. ya no one cares.
and back to the qns: what are frens for?
was there everytime but no one here.
asking too much? or i shld learn to pick it up?
why dont i let go? or just let time settle everything?
drowned in tears...
timecheck: 8:05 PM
oh why does everyone seems so sad these days? due to a level result? or whatever like itp?
comeon everyone its nt the end of the world even u did not make it. everyone are strong in diff way and have diff interest. scoring bad results does NOT mean that u are useless. heard that?
i know last time ppl use to say ite is Its the end. but look what the society needs now? a bunch of pratical people who can work better on hands-on things but not book worms who are only book smart. anyway no offend la just my pt of view.
anyone pls help me? i am now working like a machine in this stupid company which treats workers like shit. They thought we are machines that do not need to talk or go toilet sia... argh hate them. I still have freaky 6 more weeks to go... Somebody Save Me!!! i have to drag myself form bed every morning to go to work. whats life without passion in what u are doing. its like asking a artist to do maths qns la... sian.. sorrie for lousy description.
caught the ugly betty on channel 5. oh man she is so sad. lucky i didnt really experience wat she did cause i am ugly too... but watching this show i totally can understand how she feel. now in the reality world everyone likes pretty girls ya so i am thinking whether will i be left on the shelf. shit... oh no... anyway worry later ba...
okie la. i think i have nth else to add. anyway if anyone by any chance needs something interesting to do this holidays, can consider take up a yoga course. its very fun and benefits u too... no harm trying... =)
quote: look things on a brighter side and everything will seems fine.
timecheck: 5:37 AM
Friday, February 23, 2007
chinese new sure eat alot. the outcome of it is that i gained 1 kg. oh man. already so fat now still like this... argh...haha yesterday was considered lucky ba. a guy approached us when we went shopping for present with ang and adeline. He's from tony and guy academy. he needs people to cut their hair for their assignment. the two of them cut hair was alright. i was the "break record" one. cut till so boyish. now officially boy liao la... sian... saw vanessa when i went to the bugis toilet. haha everytime see her anywhere i go so suay... haha =)Got a week break from the supervisor and now leaving behind 7 more weeks of itp. I just hope that each day pass quicky so that itp will end. but when itp ends, sch starts. next year we will be left on our own. no more senoirs to be there for us if we have trouble. not say we useless la but is not used to it when they are not around... i will miss them la...everyone now busy registering for the university admission. chinese new year allows me to talk with my relatives. all ask me hows my studies and the future liao. how i know? i hope i can go uni la. but see ppl all from uni like zombie makes me think twice... haha i wouldnt want to take the same course in uni but michelle says i need to get a credit like top 5 % in order to change course. come on top 5% was nv for me maybe from bottom count i sure inside de... haha... starting to think abt my future liao which i dun really do it in the past. there're so many options in life and they look attractive. i have to make the right choice in case i regret la next time.okie next fri yoga class is goin to start. yippy! then slimming project starts again. haha... okie fine. new year season how can say slimming project? impossible la... aahahah... anyway ya everyone take care then i will end here liao ba. dunno what else to say liao...
timecheck: 10:40 PM
exams are here and thats my biggest fear. oh not bad it rhymes. haha... anyway ya posting cause was too stress studying. i hope i really put my best shot into this time round exam. i must try my best. to the fullest i suspose. to whatever consequences it gets i just need to noe i tried my best thats it. dun have regrets can liao. yeah!
just hope that the exams will be fine. i dun wanna see the modules again mext sem.
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