Yes the race has ended. but it ended with tears rolling down my cheeks...
i am a human too and i have feelings too... why must u all rub salt on the wound when it's already pains us all? i know u all are very happy cause u have put in hard work and it paid off... haha ya that's for ya... not for us...
poor gals in the team have to bear with all the ppl who were all overjoyed and forget how we feel... being so happy when i take photos but todae i didn't take much... didn't cheer much neither did i eat alot... i guess this compeition really have a great impact in me... what happen? it's not that we lose that i am disappointed abt... it's the hard work that we put in didn't pay off... wensu was right we gals train so hard yet there are ppl who didn't come down for training... and on the day itself they didn't perform...
i can't describe how i am feeling now... sort of not happy and disappointed... i can't hide my feeling. i ran away to the toilet when they were all cheering... the pain is so great i can't take it anymore that's why. went home straight after the race even though it's the time to celebrate... shed tears on the way home when in the train... it's just emotionally down and i nv have this type of feeling before... it's a different experience... it pains when i know we came in so back and it hurt more when i see everyone cheering leaving u behind as if u are a loser...
nvm no one understands how we feel only team 2 gals know... ya that's all that i wanna say... hope time will help to heal this wound...
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