oh man i think the sat election was such a disappointment. I think only for me ba. cause most of the others got what they want. no one knows i was sad or maybe they know but nv say? ang called la telling me not to sad. next moment not sad but was only temporary. cannot be in the convo keep saying sad ma. but i think i need to let go and time is needed. why do i have to experience this again? first is poly 50 now is this?
growing stage is it? i realise its always the bad thing on me till now i haven seen any success in myself or any happie moments that i can proudly share with everyone. sad am i such a loser? no one knows only i do.
kk anyway after yesterday's kayaking i am aching all over my body. but my heart hurts the most. i cant believe that they called me a figurehead? eh i have feelings too. erm since i cant get it can dun pls mention it in front of me? what will 1 feel? u think? i know u all will nv read my blog but i just want to shout it out loud here. if u reads it good at least u know. damn hiding feelings infront of others is one of the toughest job i think. i cant hide feelings and what i do is always so real so i dun fake it out anything. the worst thing is i dun have silbings to talk to so i have to hide my unhappiness even in front of my parents. argh why turn out to be like this?
i am emo but who knows? damn. let the past be past and live for tmr. i hope this can come true...
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