Be Happy. Dun Worry

2007-04-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

feeling very fan right this moment. i cant explain why to this too?

had our handover ceremony yesterday and ha we had 'clubbing' at the moberly room like crazy. ha the gals are all so fun and they rock. i really miss u all. played bridge for like 8 hours. siao ppl we are. just so tempted to the game after every round. it get even more interesting when we actually raise the numbers... ha...

thanks seniors for making the banner and the video for us and the junior committee. u all will be always rmb. it so fun to be with u guys. too bad upgrading drew a line bet us if not we can achieve a better outcome. ha...

anyway ya a year had pass so soon. we had the good times and bad times together and yes we pull through. thanks again.

she talked to me and ya make me feel better. but funny they keep asking this matter. i will get over it de la. thanks so much for ur care and concern. i appreaciate it. =)

2007-04-03T04:47:00.000-07:00

hey to all my peeps i am sorrie to make u ppl worry out there. yeah i am fine maybe is just feeling down or sth. relax la i am fine now. what more can i hope for? theres only 7 more weeks to the end of itp. yeah the holidays are finally over? weird right first time wanting the holidays to be over so fast.

yeah i will get the sunshine peixuan to be back again. not to worry. yeah man thanks alot ppl! =)

2007-04-02T05:06:00.000-07:00

oh man i think the sat election was such a disappointment. I think only for me ba. cause most of the others got what they want. no one knows i was sad or maybe they know but nv say? ang called la telling me not to sad. next moment not sad but was only temporary. cannot be in the convo keep saying sad ma. but i think i need to let go and time is needed. why do i have to experience this again? first is poly 50 now is this?

growing stage is it? i realise its always the bad thing on me till now i haven seen any success in myself or any happie moments that i can proudly share with everyone. sad am i such a loser? no one knows only i do.

kk anyway after yesterday's kayaking i am aching all over my body. but my heart hurts the most. i cant believe that they called me a figurehead? eh i have feelings too. erm since i cant get it can dun pls mention it in front of me? what will 1 feel? u think? i know u all will nv read my blog but i just want to shout it out loud here. if u reads it good at least u know. damn hiding feelings infront of others is one of the toughest job i think. i cant hide feelings and what i do is always so real so i dun fake it out anything. the worst thing is i dun have silbings to talk to so i have to hide my unhappiness even in front of my parents. argh why turn out to be like this?

i am emo but who knows? damn. let the past be past and live for tmr. i hope this can come true...

2007-03-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

mood swings these days. i dunno what happened to me just feeling down. no motivation and feel so lonely i guess. is it due to the way they treat me or is it other problems.

lots of problems kept in the heart cant find any peeps to pour it out. everyone is busy. piling up the saddness in me. ya no one cares.

and back to the qns: what are frens for?

was there everytime but no one here.

asking too much? or i shld learn to pick it up?

why dont i let go? or just let time settle everything?

drowned in tears...

2007-03-05T05:37:00.000-08:00

oh why does everyone seems so sad these days? due to a level result? or whatever like itp?
comeon everyone its nt the end of the world even u did not make it. everyone are strong in diff way and have diff interest. scoring bad results does NOT mean that u are useless. heard that?

i know last time ppl use to say ite is Its the end. but look what the society needs now? a bunch of pratical people who can work better on hands-on things but not book worms who are only book smart. anyway no offend la just my pt of view.

anyone pls help me? i am now working like a machine in this stupid company which treats workers like shit. They thought we are machines that do not need to talk or go toilet sia... argh hate them. I still have freaky 6 more weeks to go... Somebody Save Me!!! i have to drag myself form bed every morning to go to work. whats life without passion in what u are doing. its like asking a artist to do maths qns la... sian.. sorrie for lousy description.

caught the ugly betty on channel 5. oh man she is so sad. lucky i didnt really experience wat she did cause i am ugly too... but watching this show i totally can understand how she feel. now in the reality world everyone likes pretty girls ya so i am thinking whether will i be left on the shelf. shit... oh no... anyway worry later ba...

okie la. i think i have nth else to add. anyway if anyone by any chance needs something interesting to do this holidays, can consider take up a yoga course. its very fun and benefits u too... no harm trying... =)

quote: look things on a brighter side and everything will seems fine.

2007-02-23T22:40:00.000-08:00

chinese new sure eat alot. the outcome of it is that i gained 1 kg. oh man. already so fat now still like this... argh...

haha yesterday was considered lucky ba. a guy approached us when we went shopping for present with ang and adeline. He's from tony and guy academy. he needs people to cut their hair for their assignment. the two of them cut hair was alright. i was the "break record" one. cut till so boyish. now officially boy liao la... sian... saw vanessa when i went to the bugis toilet. haha everytime see her anywhere i go so suay... haha =)

Got a week break from the supervisor and now leaving behind 7 more weeks of itp. I just hope that each day pass quicky so that itp will end. but when itp ends, sch starts. next year we will be left on our own. no more senoirs to be there for us if we have trouble. not say we useless la but is not used to it when they are not around... i will miss them la...

everyone now busy registering for the university admission. chinese new year allows me to talk with my relatives. all ask me hows my studies and the future liao. how i know? i hope i can go uni la. but see ppl all from uni like zombie makes me think twice... haha i wouldnt want to take the same course in uni but michelle says i need to get a credit like top 5 % in order to change course. come on top 5% was nv for me maybe from bottom count i sure inside de... haha...
starting to think abt my future liao which i dun really do it in the past. there're so many options in life and they look attractive. i have to make the right choice in case i regret la next time.

okie next fri yoga class is goin to start. yippy! then slimming project starts again. haha...

okie fine. new year season how can say slimming project? impossible la... aahahah... anyway ya everyone take care then i will end here liao ba. dunno what else to say liao...

2007-01-29T07:22:00.000-08:00

exams are here and thats my biggest fear. oh not bad it rhymes. haha... anyway ya posting cause was too stress studying. i hope i really put my best shot into this time round exam. i must try my best. to the fullest i suspose. to whatever consequences it gets i just need to noe i tried my best thats it. dun have regrets can liao. yeah!

just hope that the exams will be fine. i dun wanna see the modules again mext sem.

2007-01-11T10:53:00.000-08:00

woo its seems damn long since i update the blog again. just finish the 3 weeks holidays. was suspose to be studying but ya haven been doing anything abt work only abt cca la... haha

lets see what have i done?
- 20 to 21 dec is tri ex. quite fun la first time try out an event whereby the participants can try out cycling, sailing and kayaking in this camp.
-22 dec np gathering at swissotel. wa quite ex la but good experience to be a fake tourist. haha
-23 dec at pm having spa christmas party.
-24 dec christmas at xiaomin's hse and stayover.
-25 dec beauty slp due to so many events.
-27 to 29 dec AAX camp, haha memories flows back.
-31 dec to 2 jan xtreme kayaking. wa kayak on 2nd day at from changi to east coast. current was damn strong and hardly moving half way change with reave. hiaz didnt complete the whole journey.

and yes last week was all the slacking done. not much work was done in the holidays. sian. exams coming soon and i have 5 papers.
31 dec: BMRENG ( study early if not die)
1 feb: SNI ( simple qns carrying lots of marks almost in mst)
2 feb: EMII (A) ( hopefully can make it for the probability qns)
5 feb: IBE ( got 14 chapters to study and memorise)
7 feb: EMD ( i hope i can make it cause haven been doing the tutorials)

oh no seems like i am gonna be in deep shit if i dun start studying now. but i am just a last min person which will chiong when i kan chiong liao. oh no! pls help me to start studying la. if not i really die la...
okie la i better start studying liao ba... ahah... okie take care ppl. i know other poly start their exams after new year. anyway jia you ppl we can do this!

2006-11-25T20:06:00.000-08:00

haha blogging again. i must say this week was kinda a catching up weeek. other than with miss lau and the trainees for movie,saturday was campfire at sec sch.
getting old i think no one knows us there like as if we are very old batch. and a tour ard the sch reminds me of the innocent and rebellious me. ha visit the blocks of classrooms remind me of the memories.
watching the guys playing basketball in class
havoc when teachers are not in
stay back late in sch in sec 2 playing blk catching
jumped from 2nd storey and spained my ankle (haha was really clumsy)
letting mrs lau slp in class so that we have no lesson
going up late for class after recess
standing outside cause we were late for susan wong's class
studying for biology test every wed
visiting mdm oen for studying test during eril
called out as turf club members during PE period
haha and the list goes on and on. yeah alot of happie sad angry and stupid moments i had in sec sch. looking back at the actions i did sometimes i feel i was stupid but well i guess its the period when we grow up. no one says it was wrong or right to behave in that way. everyone has different period to grow up so ya its a matter of time.
had a gathering with the nco warriors 0304 yesteray. the meet up was fun as we talked abt the past memories when we have annual camp, nco camps and drills under the hot sun. i went back to the campfire and traditions was nt there. i guess thats the generation it is to be now. last time we used to follow traditions but now what we see is always chuang xin and improve to let creativity flows. so i guess ya now the generation is like this no wonder upgrading cannot run in the way it used to be. haha... anyway ya had dinner after that at clementi.
was talking abt some other issue and then link to one of our sec infamous gal in sch and we were talking abt going home late. haha and then girls must be careful. haha but well guys always say so but when we go home right they nv send us home. stupid since sec sch to poly till now nv had anyone send me home. haha they believe that i am a guy sia. shit they always say i am one. oh man. ahha anyway ya ya i am tough la ya that's why i look like a guy and also the short hair right? hee... anyway ya was great to meet them up again. hee... although 7788 not all turn up but ya nice to talk cock and kana suan in that grp. hee... suaning starts from there and i learn from there that's why now mouth so evil. haha anyway ya christmas i hope can meet up with u all. at least before they go in army la then we can see them before they turn botak haha...

2006-11-22T18:48:00.000-08:00

oh man its been raining every evening cause of mosoon... hai i cant train and ya i haven been training ever since dunno when then now i have to figure out how to survive 21 km during the standard chartered run on 3 dec... oh dear px is dying liao... i think at most come back with the last participant participating in 42km only lo. no prob one de... frens if after the race u cant see me then u go home first ba i think i may need more hrs to complete it lo... haha =P

anyway ya last weekend i went to perganrang cycling trip. a relaxing trip indeed as we realli sit at the beach with no worries in mind. i wish some other ppl can be there too to have a good chat with them. i sang with cynthia the whole night and ya enjoying it. ppl are really so busy in life that they forget what is relax oh so sad... anyway ya if got chance do go there cause the seafood there are also woohoo!!!

Met up with Miss lau and yinwei on tuesday. yup she still look the same except that she's married. haha her husband woo handsome ya. ahha anyway ya have a chat with her like we usually will after tuition hours. good and ya she understands what i feel so happie. nowadays dunno am i stupid or sth everyone dun seems to be looking at the pt of view i am looking and i cant share my views to them either... oh man it sucks ya cause u will have to think and evaluate urself... i told her some of my adventure stories and she was really amazed... anyway ya she said it was too dangerous liao.

ya watch step up with yinwei after dinner with miss lau. it was so damn cool i like the music and dance step. it's hot sia... i enjoyed the music so much but weird cause it's like so *niggershit* no offend but i still like it... ya pls go catch the movie ba it's nice... any upcoming movie that is touching? i feel i need that type cause very long see liao ever since click... haha when i cried and eileen laugh at me... argh!

yup so ya will stop here ba. hopefully i can make it for the run and yes i would wish everyone to be happie too haha...

2006-10-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

hai things are getting not any better? why is ppl getting smarter and complicated each day? last time we went down for training cause we have the passion and also for our ppl. now i dun think they even give a fcuk abt their ppl and all care only for themselves! i am getting abit sick of them. if u really have any comments just voice out why care abt others? why do u have to think till so complicated come on be straight and lets not waste each other time!
why do this happen in our batch? sick man. i envy ppl who have a team like having a grp of ppl for u all the time! like sports always there is a team and if u have the passion no matter how busy u are u sure will come down and train better still train outside training hours. remains me of campcraft competition! train till hands bleed or swell after numerous of pegging on to the grd and accidentally peg onto our hands. the bond is there and the heart is there. now everything is bull shit la. why cant they think it simple? why mus everything become so complicated sia?

everything is like so tough and we are meeting problems for every step we take. the moment the problem arise we try to solve it the next problem appear why are there so many problems? why do ppl have so many other thoughts? to be smart is a good thing but to be too smart can cause trouble to the person and people ard them. i think its true! oh man someone save me from getting rid of all these problems! shit damn angry with myself that i cant solve these problems! why like this? argh! oh dear someone give me some suggestions!

even if meetings are helf it is not helping us at all. afterall next year we are running the com not them. they can give suggestions but later on they can pack up everything is not of their concern anymore. i wanna say it here i dun care who reads it i just wanna u ppl to know. it does not help by telling us that we are the one handling the situation cant u all spare a thought for us? i feel argh when u all say that we are not doing a good job. to make matters worse words from ur mouth are trying to say that we are the one that cause this problem? oh man u think we wanna it to happen? why make our life so miserable? who dun want everything to go on smoothly? it's crap if u like to see the state of the club now. everyone are going every direction and everything is not in place i suspose. all busy with own things and ya 1001 reasons for urself and those who are stupid like us will have to attned every single thing and help out in everything.

oh man u need a break so do us. hai i have nth more to say. say liao u also not aware for what man? i just hope that the situation gets better. a blog is somewhere to voice out all unhappiness. if u read liao not happie come find me ba. i like to settle things fast and straight so speak ur mind up in front of me. dun need to hide things and i dun like ppl who are too complicated it's difficult for u and me so ya keep it simple pls!

2006-10-23T05:48:00.000-07:00

woo so long nv update liao ar... haha anyway just return from the trip to belumut... after taking the participants up the moutain. oh man i hope they like the moutain although they didnt manage to reach up the submmit cause of time shortage. i swear i will not go to that moutain ever again... that time didnt manage to climb up due to not much physical strength then now must climb 3 times in 2 months... oh man like that like can memorise the whole route liao sia...

anyway ya return to sch today and experiment with the group was fun man! haha measure the height and now only 166 only shit where did my 2cm go to? oh dear i thought 168 is very short liao now give me 166 very sad sia... argh! then had presentation after that... wear formal man. somemore the formal outfit was only brought last night after i return from malaysia... then went to play fitting room game with xiao min and eileen... try lots of clothes and seems like out playground like that haha... anyway ya i must say it's fun. i used to do it with my secondary sch frens too... haha...

finally i didnt sleep in S&I class...! yippy i manage to do it! and i understand the lesson! yippy tmr is holidays for everyone! i long to have 1 man... always spa and no time for myself to relax... i wanna go vivo city! my parents went there liao but i haven somemore so near only sia... shit i am outdated... =(

anyway to end here. good luck to those who are taking o and a level and also selamat hari raya to all the malays! =D take care peeps!

2006-10-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

oh man i ma fed up now! argh wasnt really happie when i return to school todae on monday. had a recee trip on friday and we got lost in the jungle in the dark. cause we hit night trek and end up we thought we were in a wrong track and end up ya we didnt dare to carry on and so spend 1 night inside the jungle. then next day then continue. wa the adventure wasnt that bad. make me get another experience.

todae was really not happie after class. very fed up with someone. already the co like very blur in doing the trip and we are trying to help then this stupid idiot not considerate person come and disturb the whole meeting and make alot of noise... argh! so what if u are urgent to do the namelist do u know the expedition is coming up and u nv even help anything and then keep concentrating on ur part. sike like this berlumut u also like this? what the hell is there anything to proud even if u do ur part well? whats the pt u fail by not being there to help when ur ppl need it. so what if u birthday then cannot come to the expedition big ar? wtf man? carry go water ur plant la must well dun care anything cause always ur name is there but i dun think u do as much and do ur part. only there to crap and show ppl at the front u are doing work. at the backstage u do what fuck man? show face only. suck man u! i dun care even if u see this blog and wanna hit me i just cant stand the way u do things now. u nv care abt ur ppl anymore. when did u become so selfish man? so love brought u to this state la? watever not my problem i just know what i can do is to help everyone in a effective way. ya that's all man...

2006-09-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

haha thinking of chaning the blogskin but ya lazy to do so la so ya leave it then... if u realise i'm so lazy that the age on the right column is not change too... haha =P yeah! training was cancelled for today and ya had the whole day for myself. and ya school had just started this week. okie fine for those who are still holidaying pls do not laugh at me ya...

ya holidays weren't a period to rest rather a period to do labour work? planning event weren't easy at all. especially sea event. i am happie that i survive it =) ya not easy though but i learn alot of things from the alumni and senoir this time through the happie sad or rather angry moments. first week of school was mainly briefing here and there. i promise to pay attention in class and currently i did it hopefully this last for the whole term. haha...

went out yesterday with yinwei. might be the last time this month or so till she finish her A level. I really wish that she can do well cause she wanna get a scholarship given by the navy. she has her dreams and she dream big i hope her dream come through. i wish everything will turn out well on her exam days and result day. at the same time same for all my other beloved friends who are in JC too! i wont forget abt u all no worries.

oh dear after sike i got dark alot and walking down the raod actually attract alot of stares from strangers. i hate it how many times must i say i am not a foreigner! they keep calling me tanlabenga! shit yes i work in site and i carry bricks under hot sun... oops sound more like hong tong jing =X hee...

ya todae nv do anything much la went out to teach eileen sister a maths. i hope i taught the right thing... thinking back abt how i mug for my o level and how much my principal and teacher look down on me. maybe without their 'motivation' i could have end up as a road sweeper by now. =P for that they ought to be thanks... poly no one cares about students la but funny lecturers wont let me go... they came and tell me not sleep in class when most ppl are doing so... what do i have that the lecturers have to come forward to wake me up? classmates werent so great as before nowadays. they speak to me last sem but not this sem anymore. all they talk about is results and uni cant we have topic like adventure and experience we had? more practical isnt it? kinda tired to be in class as we are there to study no longer frens there to share abt joy and sorrow... oh dear what's up with the world. fine reults are important to them then so be it. leave me alone and do not mock at me if i werent as smart as u do.

fine leave that aside. there are lots of things in this world to worry about. instead to think about it why not spend ur time be more happie. afterall we are very lucky bunch of ppl who have food and a shelter above us not like those in africa or some other poor countries. they have their meals to worry abt or even thinking whether they can live to tmr not. ya we arer fortunate and yes let's not take it for granted instead pls cherish them yeah! =) thats the way to live man. hee... sorrie to talk all this crap but this is what i learnt in this holidays. just sharing my experience ma... yes so happie holidaying for poly students adn happie mugging for sec 4 and Jc 2 students! everyone can do it! okie so ya jia you! take care!=)

2006-09-06T05:53:00.000-07:00

i feel i just write for fun only la. i feel there's no point complaining in this blog when no one really cares. everyone seems to be doing their own things. hiaz i need money i need to work too but why i am just stuck in sch dealing with unreasonable participants who insist to have frens with them then they go? why i just have to deal with the mpa ppl when i did most of the things and they are still not happie with it? why i always have to think abt others like let them go if they are busy and suffer myself? why and thousands and millions of why. i just cannot take it anymore. crying can't solve my problem anymore cause i have no more tears to shed. now is just to wait for the event to be over. and what happens if i wanna leave the club? i will not have fun anymore but i have the freedom that i long wanted. is it so? feeling like running away from the problem if i do that? so far i think they dun need me la. it seems fine without me cause i am just a nobody contributing nth to the club. ha ya true. nvm who cares then? it nv hurt them what why would they wanna know?

i am tired to go to sch every single day with no participants handing money and make me wait in vain. i am tired to look into my wallet with only a few bucks and have to think abt what to eat before doing any action. oh pls am i that poor? why i cannot find someone to donate to my fund? argh... oh dear i am really tired. dealing with so many stuffs in a month and thinking abt after that there is no rest ans it;s sch reopen. same thing ahead. slping in class and then kana this and that. oh no i make it sound like my life is terrible. but i dun want this to be like this ar. i wanna everything to be alright and expecting ppl to help. hiaz no one seems to share the feeling as me. no one just understand. it's just a feeling that no one knows. who can i tell? best fren? ha she is busy having her prelims and everyone is so damn busy to even bothered abt u. so long nv really pour out how i feel liao. so good to have a sibling ard but too bad i dun have one. ya and so i talk to soft toys which they dun reply. oh dear when will it end? pls let everything be okie during the trip if not i will be stress and ppl ard will just say dun stress. what's the point? and they dun even understand so i see no pt explaining. they are not so involved with this project what what to do? is me who is stupid enough to take up this role and now suffer. when mistakes comes i have to solve myself. its killing me! i receive no support ar and my stupid brain is not working hard enough to get a solution and end up ya. hiaz...

i really need someone to really come and understand how i feel. but i can't find one. i wanna go some place to scream out loud and vent my anger inside me but i just can't find the particular place as i am living in a city area. what i can do is to talk to soft toys and hug my pillow. fine ya no point continue liao cause no one view this stupid blog anyway. ya and so why waste time writing so much?

2006-09-04T09:56:00.000-07:00

hiaz holidays are passing by so damn fast. hiaz... feeling like crap when it sike all the way during the holidays. can someone pls make life easier to have no cock ups. but without it nth is learnt and no improvement can be made next time. hopefully can turn out fine during the southern kayaking days. life as aco is stress but now as co is worse. feeling like crap and dying everything 1 person do. i know ppl will help when i need them but the problem is i dunno what's the next problem coming up that u can help.

feeling so upset that my ppl got all the time to earn money when i am going to handle sike alone in sch and then with no bucks in my wallet. i need money someone pls donate to help the peixuan fund? i need money. i wanna go stong i wanna go diving! all this need money. pls someone can sponsor me? haha looks like no one la haha... write here also no one gonna see write for what la?

sian la really need money and then cannot go earn cause no time. pls help me la... i was thinking am i foolish? cause i always help when ppl need help but now when u need them they just turn their back and get what they want. i have no comments. i feel so damn tired. v have sleep cause worry abt proposal. now it's done also cannot have rest cause need to settle unsettled things. hiaz when can i really rest and get away from all this trouble? someone pls save me la... enough of all this. trying to keep my smile on all the times. have to strive all the way.! GO GO PEIXUAN GO! argh and now another thing is 13 sep. results are out that day. pls give me at least a 2 for gpa. sounds paethetic sia... erm anyway ya hope i can make it for next sem. hiaz...

2006-09-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

it's been long i nv update. here i am writing down what had happened during all this while. ever since exams are over there's nth to be happie abt... the last paper was like difficult and i dunno whether i can make it not? but i dun wanna forward module cause i dun really like that subject... argh how? die la... shit...

and ya after exams usually ppl relax and have fun but here i am doing up al the required stuffs for sike... it's so difficult to hold an expedition especially sea... and ya with no one to help is even worse. maybe i am not alone la cause at least the senoirs got help me la.. but at first it was like breaking down la everyday cause alot of stuffs to do. i have sth to comment i feel that sometimes it's really hard cause this period of time everyone go work adn pa seh u sia... and u have minutes to type sike to settle and with trainees giving u problems? everything just dun go smoothly... and thinking abt going to see that arrogant freak at mpa piss me off... everything is so difficult liao and he sees us student like wanna eat us up like that... i dun care if he's gonna say anything t scare us during the meeting i try to shoot man. dun thin we student nice to bully... nv hear from government ar we are the future leaders huh captain lee...

anyway this year looking back face quite a few set backs... means what? grow up huh? something not pleasant happens and i dun wish it to happen again cause it hurts me alot and it bothers me for quite a few weeks... poly 50 then mst fail but this one nth la cause expected la... cause nv study much... oops... =X then i think no more liao ba...

i hope life can be better... i dun wish to live my life with sorrow instead paint it with all the colours that i have and always be happie whenever possible. cause nth is better than laughter i guess... hee.... okie la that's all i can say. dun worry guys i may sound abit not right but i am fine. yeah! =)

2006-08-24T09:00:00.000-07:00

finally exams are all over! but the last paper wasn't as good as i expected. why teacher wanna set paper to kill us? or i am not good in those qns? there might be a chance that i will forward module... shit i think alot during the paper i finish i start to daydream abt life with retake module in poly when i sit in the lecture room being the repeated student at the back trying very hard to solve a qns...

yes exams are over but not expedition. i really hope ppl can understand and automatic to come help me. i know i am not the busiest. but i need to study boat test get involved with training camps and other neccessary planning, plan for the sike and lastly the minutes for mc meeting! why like that? i dun like to ask ppl do things so end up i suffer lo do everything myself and get stress up. but u think ppl care? they just care abt their relationship how to plan to play and stay at home. for kayaking i need go down. can u imagine my batch already left 6 ppl then out of the six one need to cook one cannot go down sea yes only girl liao and then left three guys one mother might not agree one might have church and then last one might have to go dating... sian then okie lo i no life lo... why like this? so come blog often to complain abt this and that lo. only place to vent anger. need to go walk ard chinatown see whether got a place to let me shout and cry not then at least no need cry at home on the bathroom.

i hope everything will be fine then.
Argh!!! =(

2006-08-13T10:11:00.000-07:00

haha guess everyone shld be mugging right now and here i am blogging what i wanna say ahah... went for the relay dualthon organised by the np canoeist, event wasn't that happening but i think the experience was fun! yeah with my teammate gx and together we form the double x! haha... yup the goodie bag was abit crap (pardon me) cause we are paying 18 bucks for the newurbanmale shirt which in the end i can't fit in cause i took L which is a guy fitting... sian can only wear as pyjamas i guess... hee... other stuffs inside are like things we get for orientation.. nvm at least i feel young cause it makes me feel i am a year 1 haha...

exams coming soon and i guess this time i'm gonna try my best so long i won't regret after every paper. 1st paper is on the 16 and then end on the 24. crap la everything is so cramp! papers are on 16, 17, 18, 22 and 24. 3 papers squeeze all on 3 days gonna kill alot of brain cells... i think i was so dumb la sleeping in the class during the whole 1 sem and now exam coming and i suffer! shit man i dun like this helpless feeling... it seems like u gonna ask ppl ard to teach la. but thanks to my wonderful senoir who is so willing to help me! haha thx alot ang!

i swear man i am gonna do better the next sem! i sort of plan out what i wanna aim for next term:
1) try not to nod my head during lectures
2) try to do turtorial
3) go for running at least 2 times a week
4) go to gym with eileen
5) train for standard chartered 21km run
6) lose weight
7) catch up with all my beloved frens
8) help the uic so she not so stress
9) plan new events for spa

haha sorrie ar miss peixuan is forever so greedy wanna do so many things ar... haha... frens ard me if u are reading this i think i need ur support and motivation! hee...

sian i miss my sec sch frens... i rmb i met annabel on the train when i went to visit the mpa for sea ex. we talked non stop from dover to tanjong pagar. i think my frens with me were stunned la for so much stuffs we can say... haha. i really miss the days when we had fun in class, gossip abt anyone, talking rubbish... i like the times we are so happie together.

now the time change when i look back everything are all past tense and when i want to be like that again i guess ppl might start saying i am childish? haha... frens are as crappy as usual nth change much i think is everyone way of viewing things aren't that much similar now. was reading vanessa blog, this is what she wrote: ppl turn ugly when it involved position and results. i totally agree... it so happen in my class and i am sick of it. last time when u fail ppl console u but now when u fail gd it's 1 more person less they are competing with. oh dear what has the world become to? is it so damn impt to compare result? why are smiles ard me so faked and everyone are not so real afterall. i like it when ppl treat me well sincerely like what we are taught in the good old childhood days. but since when everyone are so into their success that they turn so much ugly. it's so sad whenever i step into my class. education is no longer learning it's view in a way that the betta u score the further u go? is that what the moe wants? what the hell jc students mugging like crazy and they totally forget what's studying all about? there's no passion in study now it's like study for the sake of it. i dunno if anyone agree with me but i personally feels that... oops am i criticising sth bad pls dun sue me..

anyway this is what i feel u may feel the same or may feel different. not important its just a comment. with so much fake scenes ard i totally feel so sick lucky got sth to look forward to which is my cca. haha at least there i know what fun really is! haha...

okie i think i betta stop here if not it's getting long for this entry. i hope my exams will turn out fine and i dun need to cry after i receive all my results. haha hope everything will turn out fine in life. sth had taught me to look on a brighter side and to treasure what u have now. ya so i'll end here and good luck to everyone that are having exams this month. haha all the best! jia you and take care! =P

2006-07-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

these days everything had been tough i guess... exams coming and expedition coming too... sometimes i am thinking whether is this what i want? get myself into all this things and be busy about it? i dun mind doing all this when the effort is paid off at the end when u see smiles on ppl's face. however what i feel now is that ur effort u put in no one even cares.

ppl who u train together had turned out to be like this? i dunno what happen to them and this makes me upset. times had change and ppl also change. maybe i just cannot get back the feeling and nv gonna get it back. things are only nice on the surface however if u ever get deeper into the matter u will find lots of bullshit inside. i seriously dunno what i can do to rewind everything that had happened. i guess there's no solution to it and it's the fact and i guess i have to accept it.

i can't really describe how i am feeling now. sometimes i really hope i can cry out loud and make sure all my worries gone with the wind. but in the first place i can't even cry or tear how to fulfil it? another sad thing is that birthday is gonna be mugging. no worries every year it;s like this. mummy also dun even bother about my bday. she says it's not impt to celebrate and i think i had live with this for 17 yrs. eveything is so terrible now... i hope i can find someone to talk to and pour out all my sorrow. something that i think can make me feel relieved is that i am not the one that is in a bad situation cause there are ppl who faces problem which is even bigger than me... mine is just peanuts...

things dun go right! but ppl always say it's how u view it... trying hard to view it in another angle to make myself smile.

2006-07-12T07:36:00.000-07:00

Yes the race has ended. but it ended with tears rolling down my cheeks...
i am a human too and i have feelings too... why must u all rub salt on the wound when it's already pains us all? i know u all are very happy cause u have put in hard work and it paid off... haha ya that's for ya... not for us...

poor gals in the team have to bear with all the ppl who were all overjoyed and forget how we feel... being so happy when i take photos but todae i didn't take much... didn't cheer much neither did i eat alot... i guess this compeition really have a great impact in me... what happen? it's not that we lose that i am disappointed abt... it's the hard work that we put in didn't pay off... wensu was right we gals train so hard yet there are ppl who didn't come down for training... and on the day itself they didn't perform...

i can't describe how i am feeling now... sort of not happy and disappointed... i can't hide my feeling. i ran away to the toilet when they were all cheering... the pain is so great i can't take it anymore that's why. went home straight after the race even though it's the time to celebrate... shed tears on the way home when in the train... it's just emotionally down and i nv have this type of feeling before... it's a different experience... it pains when i know we came in so back and it hurt more when i see everyone cheering leaving u behind as if u are a loser...

nvm no one understands how we feel only team 2 gals know... ya that's all that i wanna say... hope time will help to heal this wound...

2006-06-30T09:11:00.000-07:00

haha is been so damn long since i now update my blog again... anyway nth much happening things happen in my life so far la... cause no more trips so far now...

just finished all my mst! altogether 5ive of them sia... and i think all cmi la... can pass i happie liao la... haha lina says after that this term piang till exam come... oh man i think need to chiong again... rest also like no rest like this... i guess poly life is like this?

poly 50 coming up! and we are gonna try our best to run! i hope we can get into top 5 ba... oops... quite ambitious sia... but try la since we train so hard for it! and ya the race is on 12 july itself! come on ppl! we can do it! let's work towards our goal! yeah!

ya i guess that's all i wanna say... and ya gonna give myself a break after the mst.. haven really rest for like so long lo... from school start till now so pack with camps... finally now is the time i need! =) take care peeps!

2006-06-05T06:18:00.000-07:00

oh man pls someone find me some reasons to smile and laugh like what i usually do last time. i dunno since when perhaps since i continue my journey in yr 2 i haven been happie... be it in class or in cca i dunno why i am easily emo?

been finding back my smile and the cheerful attitude i used to have for a long long time but still i can't... i think i need someone or some support then i long to have to find myself back... i can't tell my parents cause i dun think they really know what i am thinking and frens in sp are all so busy and when we have time we always talk abt serious stuffs. who will notice abt me not laughing and who give a damn i would say... i need to conquer this myself i think and no one can help me i guess...

i have alot of things i wanna do but first i hope that these wishes can come true...
- to get a gpa of at least 3.5
- not to fail any exams or mst in sp
- have fun during trainings and in cca
- find a fren who can really help me when i need them
- be a happier person and
- find back my happy going personality!

hopefully things listed there can be fulfiled. but how sia? i hope someone can really come into my life to help me ba... i cannot see the light so i need someone to enlighten me! haven feel so down before.. hiaz...

okie fine maybe i need some time to really recover from this. maybe after my mst i will work on it... give myself a break or whatever that can help...

2006-05-29T09:34:00.000-07:00

oh man it's been really long seems i last sign in to update my blog... something like abandon it and let the weeds grow... anyway was busy for the last 6 weeks. went to ubin 2 times and to malaysia 2 times and last to hantu. happening weekends i have i must say...

of course it damn affect my studies la and now i am catching up lo hopefully i can make it for my mst. okie i must believe in myself so can la... dun worry... hee...

nth much to add on la for now... just to update my blog only... hee... take care ppl!

2006-05-01T04:02:00.000-07:00

just come back from ubin for the recee for fo... tired sia... camp in ubin for 2 days and a night... wa the mosquito there is damn powerful la... aim like as if blood beffet like that non stop all flock up to u at one go de.. hiong ar they all...

hiaz ya went cycling ard ubin and fell 3 times... hiaz ya u all must be thinking there's hardly once when i return in one piece nice nice when i go cycling... but not bad la cause i can be able to cycle liao is only need to practice more and then can cycle well... cause i freak out when i see ppl coming my way and smart me i was too hungry for thrill that i went down the slope woithout tapping on the brakes at times to slow down the speed... damn dunno what i was doing? =D anyway was grateful to all who help me when i was cycling cause i was too scare then they keep asking me to cycle and encourage me la... thanks to all!

and ya i really hope that ppl actually can understand how i feel? like erm i may not be always so patient with them... hate it when they found back up and come and suan me... making me feel like i really did sth wrong when i have no bad intention at all... it's just a moment of fun that's all but she can't take it.. i totally have no idea abt it la.. but if she do it again go ahead lo i dun care liao. hack her la!

anyway whatever is it life have to go on.. at least they just suan me only not as if cutting one slice of meat out of me? and ya hopefully tmr will be a better day! hee... ya so take care peeps!

2006-04-29T09:27:00.000-07:00

many things happened since the start of the sch... had cca week and alot of ppl join our club... receive overwhelming response from yr 1 for fo camp... haha... guess can be a good and a bad thing ba... hopefully the camp will turn out successful... god bless...

and ya studies quite shaky... haven being guai now cause no time to do tutorial... but i have to i can't imagine failing for all my test for mst when the percentage are so BIG... hiaz peixuan have to jia you liao if not ppl 3yrs of poly u spend 10 yrs inside... oh no then later old liao... haha...
not that bad this year cause the ppl in my class are happening and easy to click with the gals too.. woo i found ppl who like adventure in my class too... yippy...

and ya gonna be damn busy for this coming month... like nv had been so busy compare to last time np sia... ar think i can go through this de... i believe i can...

ya that's all then nth else to update or maybe too much to update liao. so take care peeps... weather is hot do drink more water! =D hee...

2006-04-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

somebody pls pls help me! i think this year i will be dying sia... yr 2 is really stress la... need to complete so many modules in one sem and also so many events coming up my way... pls allow me to be able to cope i dun wanna repeat yr 2 again...

oh dear i think i am tramatised by my lecturers that's why say till so stress... anyway todae is the first day of sch... maybe tmr will be a better day...

2006-04-11T18:45:00.000-07:00

sch is starting soon which is just next week... somehow for those who are new to poly might get excited that their brand new year is coming and also looking forward to their first day in poly...

for me i guess next week is again like that study and stuff... but i am quite happie that i manage to get into my first choice which i major in eletrical and biomedical. not that bad afterall seems like i have some of my frens with me in the same class next year... very fortunate to have them i guess... i hope that next year my class will be funky and willing to mix ard and very on that type... cause yr 1 my class was eh.... ya so hopefully can have fun in classroom too...

adventurers ppl are fun and i realise i didn't regret joining this cca... met lots of ppl and they changes my life too... maybe i mix ard with too many guys so dun be surprised if next time i hang out with u and i say the f word infront of u... ppl may think that this club just teaches u how to be fit climb moutain and kayak in the sea? but come on poly is a stage to have fun and what is life if u are always studying and shopping in the holidays..? i guess living in the wild makes me appreaciate more things which i dun in the past... water food time and every other thing that seems insignificant have actually play a big role in our life, sometimes i sjust that we dun realise it cause we seems to treat them as granted...

well i guess only thing that not that fun is planning of stuffs and events! espeacially now being a instructor have greater role to play and more responsibility... not that easy as well cause yr 2 and more projects and itp coming so more busy... i dun wanna have depression can liao just wanna stay the happy cheerful peixuan to cheer everyone up can liao!

so i guess stop here ba cause nth more to write liao. and all the best to those who are going to poly next week and see ya ard in sch for those studying in sp.! take care and stay healthy!

2006-04-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

woo return from rabung! it's an very exciting and happening trip! luv the trip the people and the sunrise! i guess it's the first time we been to overseas with the senoirs and we had alot of fun! ahha go see my frenster pic ba sunrise is very beautiful! and the terrain at rabung is simply natural very beautiful moutain!

other than climbing the moutain we went caving too! so fun cause their cave in kelantan is like bukit timah hill to them like that... only that that one not that easy as bukit timah la! ut nv regret going to this trip! it's simply rocks man! ahha know more frens and build bond with my ppl! very good chance! ahah...

ya nth else to say kk then taht's all!

2006-03-28T08:45:00.000-08:00

woo it been very long since i blog i guess... been busy with events happening in sch... i dun understand why there's a need for the enrolment week? most of the students ran away and who give a damn abt cca in poly for some ppl la? hiaz ya dunno what sp doing? maybe cause we are involved and it's so bored doing it that's y i complain! ahah...
ya next week the gunung rabung trip is coming up and will be away from sing for 5 days. ya off to trek again... ya quite scare and dun feel like gg too... cause this trip is going with our senoirs and stress la cause can't act weak in front of them la... hiaz ya... somemorenot many of our batch ppl is gg and so no fun liao i guess... only joe, rap and elieen gg... 2 girls and 2 guys from our batch... somemore the guys are like sisters to us liao la so i guess no worries if we are slping together under the same fly sheets ahah... anyway slp together for so many camp liao already like bro and sis liao la... hiaz that's adventure ba...
hiaz ya so miss my other frens but ya no time to meet them out... argh why sia... why i get myself into so many events and now neglecting them... oh shit am i doing sth wrong? hiaz all right not to worry too much... i guess we will fork out some time afterall... ya sch starting soon and all the best to the yr2 and those who enrol themselves this year too! enjoy life in poly!

2006-03-13T16:40:00.000-08:00

hi all finally i am back to update the blog once again... this holidays i will be damn busy la... argh give me a break can? like going away from singapore to other countries to rest and enjoy? anyone wanna sponsor? ahah... hiaz ya ya let's see the schedule...
6-8 march: first aid course
13 march: kayaking course
18-19 march: graduation camp
27-31 march: enrolment week ( for those who are going to enrol in sp my frens can find me at adventure booth la ahah)
3-7 april: conquering gunung rabung
22 april: handover ceremony

wow so many things to be done in this holiday oh man i feel like i had not been enjoying holidays in poly except to climb mountain and also to kayak... not forgetting after all these events there are more events coming along like the upcoming ones are freshmen orientation camp and also the bekelah waterfall trip... hopefully it will be fun la to the participants but organising it is not fun at all la...

next, i realise that i need to know how to cycle well! i have to lo!!! that day my uncle was saying at least i have to master a form of transportation la... cycling is the best cannot be running what right? running from place to place can u imagine? nono... cycling is still the best so i have to learn! no matter what by the time i graduate from poly i have to master... but now who wanna help me? anyone? ahah...

okie then enough of my stuffs la. poly gonna start sch soon and yr 2 is coming my way sia... oh no will be facing more probs i guess and this is unavoidable sia... and ya to my frens who are going to be yr 1 in poly this year dun be afraid to know more frens in poly very useful sia... and ya join some cca to add colours in ur life in poly... but doesn't mean need to join mine la i know u all hear liao freak out where want to join? so ya all the best to me la and also those peeps who are taking the a level this yr... so ya shall end here and rmb to tag ppl! =P

2006-03-01T19:44:00.000-08:00

yeah! It's Over!

finally exams end liao... end of poly yr 1... hopefully i can make it to the second year... i see more challenge next year. afterall poly are not as easy as i think. yes, maybe there might not be alot of subjects to take instead u focus on the one u major sometimes it's still tough for us... like the projects and deadlines can already kill us! anyway whatever that comes have to accept it afterall...

oh went out yesterday after the paper.. went orchard to eat seoul... had a bad experience cause the pan i handling the oil actually 'pop' and went into two of the ppl's eyes! i also dunno what happened it just happen and i was too shocked. one to my fren and one to someone sitting besides me? hiaz lucky nth big happen if not die sia... how to give an eye for them? ahah anyway after that we went to watch final destination 3 and it was extremely gross la! didn't expect that much cause nv watch 1 and 2 b4 ma... oh man like having to die in such a state is like shit la! anyway chose the wrong movie... at least watch comedy also better like very sadistic lo watch this type of movie... after the movie i abit emotionally unstable cause the show really gross man... yesterday got abit of problem when we are outside la... me and my frens can't really settle down la we always have different opinion then hard to really have sth in common... maybe that's y we nv go out that often? or was i too busy with my cca? ahaha anyway not that bad also frens for 2 sem and been through quite alot of things together la so not that bad la... ahah

ya hopefully will be in the same class la nxt year... must wait for results to be out then know la... anyway relax first la results out then say lo... next year must know how to balance with cca and work liao cause will be very busy liao... and not forgetting to have fun too.. hiaz miss all my frens sia... i wanna catch up them this holidays... and ya all the best to those who are getting their posting this fri... shld be okie and do tell me la! =D ya and okie i think end here liao la nth more to say.. hee... take care ppl!

2006-02-23T03:50:00.000-08:00

wow i didn't know that my tagboard can be so happening... ahah thks ppl for the care and concern! i appreaciate it that alot! Millions of thks to u ppl and i am fine now(i hope...)! ha and ya busying mugging for my second and last paper... hopefully nth will happen to me this time and i can come out of the exam room with a smile wide enough to shoot the toothpaste advertisement like what i always did when i take photo ahah...

take care peeps and luv u ppl!!!

2006-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

yup so long haven been blogging and here i'm back again... ya why am i always here to complain how bad my results are how bad my life had become? i am sick of being a loser in my class... it seems like everyone is all so smart and they are aiming for university... hiaz i am too but i dun know whether i can reach it anot?

had my exams todae... started at 6 and ended at 8.10pm... after the paper it makes me wonder why am i so stupid??? all my frens can do it why can't i? already so down they are still ard busying asking whether they got it right for this and that qns...? i mean i am hurt and they are not they dun feel it.. but must i really spell them out before they can shut up and just stop talking about it?? I am not sure... feel so down now but who knows? even my parents dunno... can't my face show them all? they just dun get the hint...

i need a shoulder or maybe just a listening ear but i can't see anyone ard... my pillow will do the job ba... same old thing it hasn't been change...

2006-01-27T19:50:00.000-08:00

wow it's been quite a long time i haven come here liao ar... Yippy new year is here and we are gonna be older by one year old... sounds sad for the girls like one mroe year to add on to ur current age and nearing 20 liao...

very soon o level result will be out liao... ohoh i am damn scared... What to do? Take liao cannot change the mistakes too what? Now just sit back relax and wait for the result slip to be posted online and then go see lo... Hopefully this time is good news la...

aha we are gonna be instructors soon... Right now we are already facing manpower problem la and they pump us alot cause of that... Wed's training was like hell ran ard the sch then do pumpings and sit ups when the instructors count like machine guns then run from places to places in the night and also do endurance exercise la... cannot complain la just admit i need to work harder cause i am real weak compare to everyone in spa... px better buck up...! Hopefully it will be much better after becoming instructors and hope our ppl can be more united...

ya that's all ba... Nth else to write for now... Hope everyone will have a happy chinese new year and look forward to this new year! Take care peeps!

2006-01-13T07:27:00.000-08:00

So sad sia! seems like no one is visiting my blog like this then what's the pt of writing ahah... maybe just write when i wanna vent my anger or anything ba...

Sun is shining brightly today! the feeling of having the sun shining on my face and having the warmth is incredible! is it like that describe? ahha vocab not powderful enough to express... ahah yeah can dry my clothes liao no more worrying of not enough clothes and undergarments to wear liao! xD

really hard to see ppl's true colour until u really get together with that person long enough then u realise it sia...
hiaz yaya adventurers suspose to be adventurous la how come he like this sia... too careful of what he is doing liao!!! What is that man? it's like being a man and then scare to do this and that somemore bhb also cannot make it then still wanna act sia... How come got such ppl? then like that nxt time become instructors how to click with him?

okie enough of that person moving on! ahah meeting annabel jacq and vern on thurs ba for dinner... Seems like very excited cause so long nv see them liao and then having a chance to meet again it's great sia... like some sort of reunion like that... like so fast everyone 17 liao and we are growing up and getting mature day by day seeing more things and experience more situations... Hard to believe that we are like going 18 this year like annabel soon in march... wa so fast leh... nvm la as long as we still hang ard with one another that's great liao... it's more than enough!

aahha nth else to say liao leh??? maybe hoping that everything will turn fine and be happy always! ahah take care peeps and stay healthy! =P

2006-01-09T20:40:00.000-08:00

Arha back with a new skin. Looks very funky and cool so choose it. Spend the whole morning changing the template... tiring sia... ha I finished all my test liao lo yeah!
Got back 2 papers and I scored ard 70 plus okie la not bad next time try harder... Very soon the next exam will be starting on 20 feb and then we will be off for our 6 weeks holidays. this year poly students will start ard early april... holiday keep cutting shorter...=( anyway climbing mountain again during that six weeks of holiday and then attend graduation camp and then can become instrutors lo!
Must train liao how to become one when everyone always say i am weak ar? must become stronger then can qualify ba. Eh soon going to be year 2 liao senoir liao lo. happie liao can break rules liao ar. ha of course homework will be more and everyday will be very busy liao ar... hiaz so sad sia. hopefully everything can still be within my control like to relax and work hard when i feel like it. ha...
2006 jan is weird? everyday rain like that cannot do outdoor activity liao ar. sian cannot run and how am i gonna train? nvm hope that tmr will be better and then pls let the sun come out and warm the city... it's too cold nowadays.
Hopefully everyone is happie this year and no worries la. Hard to be like that ar. anyway stay positive everyone and hope to see you all soon. take care!

2006-01-01T19:32:00.000-08:00

Finally back in singapore and blogging now... Oh man I spent the last few moments of 2005 rotting at home and looking after my injuries... Did not went out to countdown... But I was able to catch the amazing fireworks which lasts for 15 minutes this year! It's great man the fireworks and it's beautiful too!
Came back from Mt.Ophir on 29 dec. I must admit that I am the weakest and the injury prone one in the whole grp... First day went there we had lunch at the malaysia station. After finding the bus getting to Gunung Ledang resort we set off to the place. Guess what? The whole journey from the malaysia station to the resort took us like 4 hrs to reach there. We reached there at 5pm and then we waited while some of our instructors register our names for us. Soon it started pouring and then still we went on with the journey up to the base camp. On the way up we saw the waterfall and the river. It's so natural and beautiful. ahah then continue with the journey and we were very afraid that we might hit night trek however we manage to reach the base camp when night falls and we started pitching up tents and also cook out dinner.
After some light activities we slept. The weather there at night is like aircon under 12 degrees freezing cold lo... Somemore it rains and we have to sleep in flooded tent.
Next morning we set off to the submmit. First part are all the flat grd and all the overhanging branches and so on. After that we had to climb ladder to the goat cave and then climb over a vertical wall with the help of only a rope. That was called the KFC. Why? I also not sure leh something like killing field something de la. Then I slide down from the vertical wall twice causing abration on my back thighs. Then I can't make it at first while all my frens are all on top of the wall waiting liao. Then they motivated me up and okie lo I reached. After that the aircon on top of the mountain is even colder and some of us could not stand it liao... After that we reached botak land and after like 30 minutes of climb we reached the submmit and too bad we didn't bring camera and could not take any picture of us. It's much more colder and more windy on top. We had lunch there before we set off down to our base camp again... On the way down ahah we keep asking ourselves how did we climb up? Ard 5 we reached our campsite again and then cook our dinner and later sleep. This time very cold and the tent is really flood till no one can sleep lo. aha then soem of our ppl also down liao then must take care of them.
Last day came along and we had to go back down and catch the bus and go back to singapore. Then that day we reached singapore at ard 6 plus with tha jam and all the traffic.
Ya anyway lucky I did not roll down the mountain and I am back safely. hehe it's indeed a different experience. So ya this is the adventure for last month. Happie new year ppl! Take care. =D

2005-12-19T23:53:00.000-08:00

Wow that sunday very fun sia... Yipee we had gathering at weidong's hse and took alot of pictures! Nice and fun I would say! Thinking about it I feel so happy that we are still keeping in contact with each other even after our secondary school education... Wow totally had great fun that sunday! Me planning to have another gathering on 30 dec. So far the idea is to go sentosa. What's more I am not very sure. Pls give me idea if u have any. Or u wanna tell yy about it cause i will be away from singapore from 27 to 29 dec. Back on 29 dec probably in the evening ba...
Next year I planning to try sth fun like the first event I planning to go: Surf & Sweat! Heard that we will have to surf like for 300m and then run for 3 plus km ba... Think we will just lie on the surfboard and paddle instead... Come on, where to find wave in spore? Unless tsunami? Touch wood man! Eh ya so have to train very hard if I wanna participate in those events... I just scared that when I reach there the booth had closed liao cause the race is already over... Haha... Then malu sia...
Oh and then chrsitmas is coming I haven see any santa claus coming to town yet... How do I got the present I want? Ya and then 27 dec leaving for malaysia to climb Mt. Ophir... wonder I can make it? Oh no... Erm ya crazy me after the holidays will be my test week and I'm like slacking now... Oh this cannot be it! I have to do sth... Oh man just hope that I won't fail...
Okie then erm I gonna stop here... Hopefully someone's tagging here... If not this blog gonna rot... Ya take care guys and tell me any crazy idea if u have any for 30 dec k? Thx alot! =D

2005-12-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

Oh man long time no blog sia... i wonder if anyone cares... The tagboard is there to collect dust, it's not happening at all... Why no one visit de... Hiaz ya ya...
So dec is coming and I had done my christmas list... Wonder santa will come and give me not? Eh still young dreaming abt santa clus coming to town! ahah... Ya and tests are coming too... It's after the land ex which is next year jan...Ya I am going to Mt. Ophir this dec... Wonder I can make it to the submmit? Anyway ya for those who wonder I am still very black... ahah... Why I type that? Nth else to say so type that ahah... Who cares man? No one visit this blog at all de la... Write crap also no one knows...
All right gonna end here... Bye guys and take care!

2005-12-03T20:11:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming and I am bored... haha maybe I can name out my wishlist here and hope santa can grant me all... hee...
* To see snow
* To be able to travel to other country
* To let my mum be happy and active
* Lessen all the pain on my dad's body cause he is like suffering during the cold weather
* To be as happy as before with my family
* Can have happiness all ard the world and not anger, hatred and all the bad things
* To lose weight so that the earth can be lighter by abit
* Have more nice clothes to wear
* Camera phone
* Adidas bag
* To have more money so that no need worry
* A brain to study for me and take exams for me and I can relax...
* Vanquish all the sufferings in the world
* To allow all the wish above to be granted

Dear santa clus, I hope u can see my wishlist written here and allow all of them to be granted! Yeah! I will be looking forward to accept them ahaha...

2005-11-13T12:37:00.000-08:00

Woohoo! Yesterday so happy cause our manpower is back and also upgrading is gonna end... Two more camps and we are gonna be instructors! Cross fingers that I can be one la... Ya anyway there is quite a no. of events coming up... This sat they going for recree at malaysia in perangang, cycling... Not going cause mother dun allow la... U all shld know why... Then christmas is coming and oh no I have to celebrate with spa ppl cause we are gonna be organising an event for the alumni from 6pm to 3am. Dun worry pals can we meet like on christmas day itself?
Dec is coming and one whole year is gonna end and it seems like last week I just graduate from sec4! Time Flies and soon b4 we know we are graduating in poly... 28dec I am going Mt. Ophir. It's our land expedition la... Hope I can make it... That time the gunung belumut I didn't made it to the submmit... Only wc made it! It's gonna be tough... That's why we going self training tmr! Like last week, tmr we are running the canal again with more ppl this time! It's 5.7km I guess it's good exercise. I wanna slim down la tired of carrying so much fats walking ard in my life it's time to change and enjoy the joy of walking and running ard with lesser weight! ahah what am I talking? In short means I wanna lose wt la... Haha...
I came to realise one thing sometime last week... I realised many of my frens got steady liao... ahah... It's not that I am desperate to have 1 la. It's just that seems like everyone has one and many things changes too... Not to worry enjoying singlehood is also a lurxy! Feel like I had somehow change after joining spa... No longer the lazy bum in my family!After all the camps and experience I had been through allow me to learn how to treasure things and ppl more than I do in the past! Not bad after all I had learnt something out of my poly life!
One more happy thing is that I had finished my o level English No More Stress! Yeah! Hope this time rd I can pass or at least a c5. Alright ppl stop here for now! Take care and happy playing for all who finishs o level nxt week! Tag e too... My tagboard is dying and rust is collecting in it... Haha... XD

2005-11-06T12:07:00.000-08:00

Nth much happen this weeks cause training had stopped probably to allow us to rest well and recover from the sickness we had after aax... Had many frens that said my adv club is crazy and i know. But the frens there is sth I treasure and I would not wanna quit ba... Perhaps by staying I can also stay fit ba... ahha not too bad I had lost some kgs... Hehe from 80kg to 74kg now... oops I revealed my weight... ahah... Maybe who needs kgs I can give them I have 9kg to spare b4 I reach my dream weight ahha...
There's a cycling expedition coming soon... It's cycling in malaysia. Once again we will be working committee and I hope I can go cause cycling I always fall... Cycling in ECP also can fall what abt malaysia? I dare not think sia... Somemore need passport confirm need parents' consent b4 I can go... Somemore something very happening sia... Going to yishun safra to try out rock climbing, abseiling and also flying fox! Yeah! Organised by adeline's dad! Hope it will be fun sia! Think it will be cause got so many fun ppl going as well...
Yesterday went ang's kampong... No la it's 3 storey hse so we said as kampong lo... hehe... Really big sia. My whole hse is his living room liao... It's like 3 generations gathering sia everyone went in and play uno, heart attack and watch movie... Fun la... Then found out from senoirs that their training for themselves now is like running 14 km de... Wow hiong sia... They encourage us to join marathon la... They themselves now going for trilathon de lo... Fit sia... Of course to go marathon of course have to train well my 2.4km first la... hehe...
Anyway that's what happen this week la. Not really interesting happened la... hehe... Will try to update more. Then okie stop here now and take care guys!

2005-10-31T16:43:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone I am back from my aax! Luckily I survived... This camp is really a very miserable camp... Only 4 person turn up for the camp... Guess who? The same old ppl lo... Rs elieen and suxia... Hiaz what is this man? Where did our other ppl go? Why they leave us there and suffer sia...
Anyway the camp really not easy... First thing in the morning we set off from sp... Guess what we are going to pulau ubin! But it's by foot! In other words from sp walk to ubin! No joke is real! On top of that we have to carry flagpole, ropes, 2 jerry cans, indian pots, mess tins, our belongings, army waterbottle, tents and grd sheet la... We were like walking from sp to dover mrt, pasir panjang, hawpaw villa, harbourside, queenstown, bukit merah, tiough bahru, great world city, orchard rd, havelock rd. Then stop for dinner near my house... Then walk to explanade, city link, suntec city, kalang then to the stadium. By the time it rain liao so rest there lo... Then in the night we walked from kalang to east coast park and sleep there for the night! Then wake up in the morning walk to bedok jetty! Wa this part kill me man! Was holding on to the flagpole and the ropes with the heavy bag! By this time all of us shrag liao ma... Somemore only 4 ppl so everyone have to carry not given a chance to rest! Poor Rs only guy in the team see him very shrag also la... Then eat skippy and bread at bedok jetty! After that walked out of east coast park to changi coast rd! Hate that the road is super long and nv ending... Very demoralising for that part too... Then the signboard written changi willage ahead but die die cannot reach like that... Hiaz... Then from there go to changi beach then finally to changi jetty! Spent 2 days walking from west to east of singapore! Then reach ubin walk to campsite somemore sia... Then eat dinner and then do exercise clear punishment learn aax song lo...
Third day is here and then we were sleeping even till 7 plus then wake up eat skippy and bread and then after that went up a hill dig earthworms! To have survival fishing lo... Then big worms catch big fish! End up done everything and then stand in the sea to catch fish... No fish and then instrcutors say eat the WORMS! Huh?! Eat it?! Yes we ate it! Horrible... Then after that went up set trap and then go for orienteering... Then after that came back campsite to have eat dinner and then do exercise again... Night walk and then clubbing.... Came back dig hole to act as our bed for that night! Then wake up cover back hole then breakfast and then clear the rubbish and get ready to set off to singapore... Ard 9 plus reach and thought have to walk back to sp end up lucky sit in lorry back! If not 2 more days... Reach sch then wash the stuffs and then clear punishments lo... so debrief then aax end liao lo...
AAX is tough sia the walking part! No joke lo walk from west to east... somemore at orchard rd everyone keep looking at us cause of the pole and the things we bring... If manpower more I think we won't suffer till so hiong la... Was very shrag at the walk from east coast to changi coast rd not easy! I guess we need to be more bonded... almost wanted to give up during the camp but my frens make me wanted to stay... if I leave then 3 person how to continue? So stay on and endure lo... Hiaz but did not think I perform well la cause like alot of exercise can't do well and make them add punishments too... Anyway I am glad that I survived this camp la... Hope more ppl can come down for future training camp cause manpower determines alot of things sia... so end here think u guys have a shock on what I do in adventure club ba... hehe... Anyway take care peeps!

2005-10-26T13:28:00.000-07:00

Hey guys going off to camp again tmr... Must be shocked right cause this holiday I am having so many camps and had been busy with my cca and disappearing from all the gathering that u all had organise... I am very sorrie to u guys out there...
Anyway the last camp is an expedition for all the students in sp and we are the organiser. Well tmr's camp is a training camp like the other time when I killed a frog... I hope I would survive... Dunno what the instructors will do to us? But I expected that we will be walking alot cause one of the training we were carrying a 7-8 kg bag walking from sp to bukit timah... Extreme ya? Hopefully I would be able to survive this aax... Only 5 persons coming down for this camp... Manpower shortage... Hope some ppl will change their mind la... Anyway gonna stop here and update again when I'm back from the camp... Take care peeps! Luv ya!

2005-10-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

Todae went out with Elieen, Rs, suxia and weichong to buy the survival kit... Ya spent the whole day to get as much things as possible la. Lucky we got quite a no. of stuffs liao... hehe... Was really sad cause when i went to beach rd then the girl ask what cca we from then I said adventurer then she replied no wonder so dark... Then went in burger king and saw my primary sch teacher and she cannot recognise me... she said i am dark too... Last one was one china women ask me direction and then she hesitated cause she thought I dun understand chinese...
Oh no am I that dark? Shit I become so dark... Oh no so dark sia la no one will recognise me liao... Everyone wanna go sentosa to tan not me la cause I am already extreme dark liao till 3 ppl do those actions to me... Next time maybe I kana caught by police... They might think I am bangla or what cause too dark... Other than that todae nth much happen liao la...Ya that's all... try to blog again then... take care peeps out there... Luv ya...

2005-10-17T12:56:00.000-07:00

Went for southern island expedition for 4 days. My leadership skills sucks! Why they choose me as a aco? Maybe wanna me to learn ba... Hopefully I didn't let anyone down in this trip... Ya the first day we stayed at poly marina and had briefing for the trip.Next day, we kayak from poly marina to sister island suspose to reach ar 5 plus but we reach at 2 plus. Amazing.... Then the next day was from sister's ialand to Pulau jhore then to pulau hantu. Played at the lagoon for few hrs before heading back to sister's island. Later that night we had camplite and had fun. Last day heading back from sister's island to poly marina night mare begin...
We were reaching the break water and wind was getting very strong... We saw quite a number of ppl capsized... Then me and my parnter almost cap but we managed to recover... The waves was super strong plus the wind blowing... Then one part we cap and then was blowing the whistle like mad to get ppl to save us... The waves was so strong and we kept drinking the sea water... It's like life and death experience cause in the sea it's no one if no one save us dunno what will happen to us? Then in the end we wanted to swim to the nearby shore which is the psa... Then one subber dinggi came to save us... That was like after 30 to 40 minutes ba... I was still holding on to the kayak refused to let go... In the end they said abandon it... I was stunned... Thought kayak was more impt than my life... ahaha... Went back to pm and then police car came and wanted our contact no... Later they drove us to psa where everyone was there... So relieved that everyone was saved... Then we had free clothes cause they saw we were all wet...Then first time sitting in police car too... ahah... Everyone was there, some were crying cause they are scared by the storm and were shcked... But the experience was like never before cause it's quite close to life and death... ahah... Anyway we survived... heehe...
Well maybe u all shocked about my expedition cause u might be thinking that so dangerous and still wanna go... It's unexpected la this type of situation... The situation is like as if disaster we saw in tv but minor abit... hehe... Cause we lost all our belonging we brought there and kayaks too... In the end the senoirs went on a dinggi to search for it... After this trip, I felt as if I am living my second life cause I dunno what will happen if no one saves me... It makes me feel more alive I guess... XD

2005-10-11T23:32:00.000-07:00

To all my frens, sorrie think had been real busy these few weeks to contact with u all to go out! I am having expedition this holidays and camps too... So will be very busy la... Saw ziyuan and kenneth this week... Miss them so much... Seems like very long we nv get together liao ar... Okie heard from weidong that we are having a nco outing soon... Yeah! Hope I can go la cause real busy la this few weeks... I apologise if I mia for the events u wanted me to go... Anyway take care peeps and I am going to be charcoal black soon... =D

2005-10-07T22:37:00.000-07:00

Oh no I am going to be very tan liao...Had three days boat course and learnt quite alot of stuffs. Driving a boat is very fun and of course must be careful la... Haha really enjoy it la. Todae was the practical la sad lo me sunburnt again. I really hope that the next time I go out with my frens they can still see me la... Cause now is getting worse la... What more is that this is not the end yet... 13 oct to 16 oct got southern island kayaking expedition and of course expose alot to sun... Dun noe what will I become but confirm will burnt de... Last time one aunty thought I was from philiphines now I dunno la but hope can still see me ahah...
These few days very busy with spa ppl... They are fun ppl and it enjoyable to be with them... Not bad too getting to build bonds among our ppl, instructors and also the senoirs... It's very fun being like crazy and laughing together... And also all the cold jokes la...
Southern is coming hope that it will turn out well la... Cause feel very paiseh if didn't do it well cause so many participants are in the camp and also dun wanna spolit spa reputation la... Nth more to write la... Maybe very tired to do so... But at least I am enjoying what I do... That's the way poly life shld be, not mugging afterall... ahah... Come on jc peeps, Promos going to be over! All the way man! Take care too! Others just stay funky and cool! Enjoy!

2005-09-30T18:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Finally my exams finished liao lo! Yippy... Dun wanna really think about the results... Will take it as they come... Think also no use... Next week gonna be a busy week cause sike is coming and then we have to start buying equipment and food. The participants training will be this coming monday. Hope that the people are not very troublesome and let's have fun together. Well after the sike got upgrading training... Oh no and last week of october is the advance adventure extreme. Thinking whether to go or not... Cause I thought of what happen in ax, scare this time round it's ADVANCE and it will be worse. Scared cannot survive and imagine need to eat skippy again and also ration WATER... That time is kill a frog what if this time round is kill cow? ahah no la not that worse... hehe...
Everyone out that shld be having exams now i mean those JC ppl. Not to worry u all also get to enjoy after the exams too. Jia you for ur promos and dun think too much as long as u all got study ur effort will be paid off! Take care peeps!

new blogskin again!

2005-09-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

Changed my blogskin again... Maybe I am indecesive that's why change again and again... hehe found this skin very happy and got the feel in beach so choose it lo... So good if got a chance to live by the beach cause it will be very fun and cool...

Ya suspose to be studying today cause friday last paper (principle of electrical and electronic engineering). Oh no that's the subject I dun really like cause it's actually physics la then I was taking sub physics last time maybe that's why sometimes cannot understand what's going on... Felt like a loser cause sometimes everyone in the class all know except me sia... All right if that's the case then gonna start work now... Me gonna study hard lo! Bye! Take care ppl!

change the skin...

2005-09-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

Woohoo just change my blogskin!!! This is the first time I do it myself cause that time is annabel help me do de... hehe quite fun changing the blogskin but tiring la cause have to type the links in... I feel this skin look quite happy so put it up and meanwhile can't find other interesting one so just put up this.

Yippy! Two papers down adn one more left! Todae had the engineering maths paper. Hmm... It seems tricky and all qns are very time consuming then do until very tired... I agree that 1 hr and 30 minutes is not enough for us at all... Cause almost everyone complained abt the timing when we left the room... I didn't have time to check sia... Hope I won't do that bad for this paper cause I didn't check at all... Ya some of my frens came out of the room looking so upset... Shld be the lack of time cause them to come out the disappointed look... Anyway it's over what can I do? As long as I did my best leaving with no regrets will do!

One more paper left on 30 sept. After the paper, training returns liao... Oh no it's sea training on 1 october... Hey it's children day leh... hehe... Ya I know I am no longer one la but have to think young ma... =D Southern Island Kayaking Expedition is gonna be here too sia... Now not just have to reach the destination we still have to take care of partcipants sia... Not easy! Looking forward to the jetty jump in pulau hantu... It's gonna be fun cause we seldom get to do that... Thrilling sia! Actually pulau hantu is a beautiful place! Nice sunset and sunrise! Last time np always bring us to pulau ubin got beach but very dirty. There, it's beautiful and it's clean cause no one lives there de la... ya... Anyway october will be a real busy month ahead! Oh no more challenges will be coming along the way... Hope no more ppl gonna quit again... I know it's tough but I believe we can all pull through it de! It's only whether u want to or not. Just like u believe that nothing is impossible like that lo. I dun wanna the bond to break like this...

Okie then, shld be up to here that's it! Take care peeps! All the best for the promos and prelims!

testing

2005-09-25T23:58:00.000-07:00

testing see can work not... hehe

too bored

2005-09-25T00:02:00.000-07:00

Decide to come and create a blog again and then write about what happened to my life. Cause very bored. Now is exams time and I shld be studying right? Hehe but can always see me online de... ahah... Anyway 2 more papers left la. Hopefully can pass and then over liao lo... erm life kinda busy nowadays cause got a expedition to plan and then upgrading is gonna be tougher than b4... Oh no I am one of the cannot make it category in spa... Hiaz see gonna train liao...

Other than that, one semster had gone liao... Which also means that had been studying in poly for like 2 months like that ba... Classmates are still not that close and i dun wanna care liao la. Nv even say hi or bye if see each other this type of frens dun want also no loss... hehe... Felt stress studying in the class cause it's like everyone all so clever de... Not that i wanna compete with them la cause i am always with the " DO MY BEST" quote... Anyway it's like they really force themselves to mug and so on like very sad to see that la cause life is not about degree after all... Experience also count... Imagine u go out to the society and ppl ask what u did in ur study life and u said " STUDY". If it was me who heard that I will laugh... cause it seems like u had wasted ur youth not enjoying urself... after all play hard and work hard is what students do... Not just work hard only very unhealthy de...hehe... Ya I susposed I am done with it come update again ba...